SUN NOV 15 THOUGHTS

November 15th, 2009

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At various points in my life i have kept a kind of journal or running record of thoughts, philosophies, questions, insights, details and goings ons. But in the past few years i’ve barely taken the time to write down anything, except for occasional bloggings, twitterings or random letters.

Tonight i am holed up in a hotel in Philadelphia… It’s sunday night and i am haggard. My crew is on the tour bus headed for Mississippi, and i am here for 2 or 3 days to sleep as much as possible. Last week smashed, we played to sold out off the hook crowds in Boston, DC, New York, and Philly… all 4 venues were packed to the gills and the energy of the people was extremely intense, yet super positive and inspiring.

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What stands out to me though is how natural, comfortable, even matter-of-fact each event was. While technical issues always abound, and with a road crew that is working tirelessly, each night had an automatic flow, kind of like it happened exactly as i expected or something. Not that it is boring or unimportant. But it was just that… i want to say this without any negative conotation: it didn’t feel like anything new. in a GOOD WAY. It felt super easy and natural. What was rigorous was EVERYTHING other than the 2 or 3 hours on stage. On stage it’s like poetry unfolding blindly and effortlessly. That’s how it feels. Like telling a story you know by heart even though it’s never been told before. i guess im just trying to say that playing the music feels more natural and insane than ever before.

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Today I awoke at 2 or 3 pm, my ‘voice’ was almost completely gone. I lay around for a few hours, and then got up long enough to catch a cab to whole foods, kind of float through the isles, assemble a menu of healthy food to take back to the hotel like a bear preparing for winter hibernation…I came right home, ate butternut squash soup and cornbread, made some peppermint tea, and lay back down. Tonight will be my first night not drinking red wine in months, probably one of 4 or 5 nights of the entire year. I love red wine.

Anyhow, my friend Nadia gave me ‘Get in the Van’ by Henry Rollins: kind of a tour journal of his years on the road with Black Flag. I tore through half of the book, and was struck by how it only detailed a few years, and i have been on a grinding tear-out schedule for almost 3 times that. Granted i was not slogging through the suffocatingly violent culture of self-abusive 1980’s punk rock. But nonetheless, i realized that 15 years have passed and very little of it has been recorded. …so much insanity and absolutely LOCO situations and adventures. I am mega inspired to try and record some of it down…

Not like i want people reading a book about my life in the future, but *i* want to be able to recollect those memories, either just for the dose of nostalgia, or to share them with friends.

So i figured i would start up taking at least a small daily or semi-daily record. Who knows if i will keep it up…most likely i will not.

At least it got me started again.

Maybe i will post some of it here on the blog if i end up writing anything i wanna share.

🙂

  • jane2113

    i've kept like a journal type piece of writing since like 2000 and, sometimes it seems kind of pointless since i'm so busy these days, but i'm sure it'll mean so much more to me in the future. But you have the benefit of having a crowd of people watching almost your every move (at least when you're on stage) and i'm sure if you asked them for input they'd be able to fill you in!!! but yes! this sounds like an awesome idea power to you! Oh and I was in the Philly clip around 17 seconds in, which pretty much made my night!!!!! love

    -Janie

    • Ben Dorrell

      Yeah I got half way through “American Hardcore” and just gave up. I was into newer hardcore a few years back like Terror and Blacklisted.. lol I wonder if this really sick band Cold World is still doing anything? When I was reading that book I remember feeling sad.. like what the fuck is wrong with people? I had to quit.. within months I was out of the scene and back onto true metal like Decapitated and Anata… yeah sure, much more positive!

      anywho.. TAKE THIS POST FOR EXAMPLE.. YOU ARE INFLUENTIAL!! Just as that book inspired you.. your small blog inspired me to listen to some new metal.. its been literally almost a year, well to be exact when Opeth's last album came out it was in rotation for a good while though! sick sick album!

      peace

      Ben

      • nice one! yah i am fully back into metal
        MY DYING BRIDE is melting my mind

        • rageofthesage

          You should definitely do this. I know that many people are affected, inspired by and totally stoked on your work. Aspiring youngsters could gain a lot from reading about the counter culture you're developing from your perspective especially. Just make it a new years resolution and stick to it. It's hard for me to believe it's been a year since Sea of Dreams, but I stuck with my new years resolution to make more music and play shows as a result of your music (and everyone else who rocked the house that night!). Now I'm working on compiling an official demo track and a sick remix set. I rarely ever stick with new years resolutions, but I did this time and I'm all the more invigorated with life. So just write. In a way, you owe me 😉

    • yah i think it was better that Rollins kept a journal and then published it decade or 2 later. blogging is diff, i dont feel the same ease of FULL DISCLOSURE, so this journal is nice
      🙂

  • Naomi

    reflect

    mmmmmm

  • superkali

    Lorin once again u brought the house down in Nelson!! i have decided to declare u the King of Crunk and Cozza Frenzy has all the awesome fixins of your gangster grittiness that makes yer fans go as u say…LOCO!! glad i got to say a brief hello and give u a much deserved hug see u at Shambhala 2010!! peace an luv.

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  • ashndalt

    i just wanted to say how cool i thought it was that you talked to me after the show in philly and said you and your crew had been worried about me. i think you're cool as shit 🙂

  • sijayjames

    nelson showed ruled. was an honour doing visuals for it. always wish i could get more than a few seconds to catch up a second with one the world's heaviest electronic hitters. i can't stress this enough…you are the master of bringin it. seriously, no show is left unmelted, whether its raging 250 at the spiritbar, or 15,000 at lollapalooza. a bassnectar show is guaranteed frenzy coz'ing mayhem. bless your soul rockstar man. you give it a great image. keep up with the memoirs. diaries of a bassman.

  • jacquesJHQ

    seriously the best shows ever are bassnectar shows keep up the good work! got a few pics from the nov 14th philly show where do i post them?

    • If you post them in flickr and tag them 'bassnectar' they could appear on our sidebar 😉

  • If you post them in flickr and tag them 'bassnectar' they could appear on our sidebar 😉